At times,life seems so obscure.. & equally unpredictable is the human response to the questions life asks...!
''How's lyf?'' just a routine enquiry by an almost-a stranger,can churn ur minds &squeeze out an excruciating awkwardness,havin to grope around for an ad-lib response to hastily cover up all the embarrassing doubts & confusions that haunt u incessantly..!
Long after they're gone,(apparently satisfied with ur non-committal, ''everything's fine sir!'') u continue to dwell upon that mundane question..!It takes u on a roller-coaster ride,the ques seemingly avalanching from a naive enquiry into ur mood,to a one requiring more philosophical insights..!
''WHERE AM I HEADED TO...?????''
5yrs into d field i detest (read as MBBS),6months of internship gone eventless & the next 6-sure to follow suit..utterly clueless as to what I intend to do wid my life..!Add to it the 'BELLA' confusion..should I 'befriend' her just to prolong her presence in my life,or be a stiffneck & continue to love her irrespective of the discomfort it causes her..!Always evading a question I should have answered to myself long back..'Am I complacent'?'Was i hoping to rest on past laurels'?? N many such questions of self doubt,which i feel are betr left untold here..!
One rapid swipe of destiny & i'm violently jerked back to reality..!!
Just as I write this,thru my window i can see the birds,flying in patterns,perhaps returning to their homes..!
or are they??
For i'm not sure if this is mornin or evening..!
Seems like it doesn matter anymore..!
But i love to imagine..
''Mythical birds returning to roost on bejewelled nests in a fabled treasure island in the midst of a vast green ocean bathed in the multicoloured hues of a sinking sun..!''
I wish,that i could be one among them..
But then almost suddenly,with a tinge of pain & a rush of self pity,i'm brought back to my senses..(or atleast what's remaining of my senses;@)
I finally realise that i'm just a HUMAN..:-(
From gulbarga ! Impressed wanted to know more about you
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